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It's been too long.

Well, I sure disappeared. I haven't been feeling fandom for a good long while, but I miss you, LJ, and I miss journalling. Tumblr has not been good for my attention span, and I've been really wanting to get back to writing longer pieces.

And on that note, I'm having a sexual identity crisis.

Really, though, this is a post about sex and sexual identity, and also porn. TW for internalized homophobia and biphobia within.Collapse )

Ira Glass on Creativity

"Nobody tells this to people who are beginners, I wish someone told me. All of us who do creative work, we get into it because we have good taste. But there is this gap. For the first couple years you make stuff, it’s just not that good. It’s trying to be good, it has potential, but it’s not. But your taste, the thing that got you into the game, is still killer. And your taste is why your work disappoints you. A lot of people never get past this phase, they quit. Most people I know who do interesting, creative work went through years of this. We know our work doesn’t have this special thing that we want it to have. We all go through this. And if you are just starting out or you are still in this phase, you gotta know its normal and the most important thing you can do is do a lot of work. Put yourself on a deadline so that every week you will finish one story. It is only by going through a volume of work that you will close that gap, and your work will be as good as your ambitions. And I took longer to figure out how to do this than anyone I’ve ever met. It’s gonna take awhile. It’s normal to take awhile. You’ve just gotta fight your way through.” 

#that comforting moment when the most trustworthy man in America seems to reach through your computer screen and tell you you're okay and should keep trying.

Look at her arm muscles!

Late to the game, but there's this.

OMG Legend of Korra trailerCollapse )



Gender swapperoo what-if games might be my favorite form of feminist critique, so I found this rather delightful just as a rhetorical exercise, if nothing else. But there's a lot of good points in here, especially regarding S.P.E.W. I don't think I can get behind everything she says... Doyle's implicit dismissal of every female character besides Hermione seems to commit the same fallacy she herself is mocking, for one... but I like this.

Book Rec: Fall on Your Knees

Written for, and cross-posted with, lgbtq_recs.

 Fall on Your Knees, by Ann-Marie Macdonald, makes no bones about being a gothic tale about a doomed family. The first line of the book is “They’re all dead now.”

But this is far from an unrelentingly bleak novel. It's full of black humor, humanity, and hope as it tells the story of four daughters in a lonely, turn-of-the-century island town in Novia Scotia.

The Piper family is held together by duty and music and Catholic guilt, and the four Piper sisters grow up haunted by the sins of their parents and grandparents. The four girls wrestle with the past, and struggle to find their own path in life. These four are some of the loveliest, most vivid characters I've come across in recent years.

This is a story about the secrets people keep in a small town and in a close-knit family. Queerness is most definitely a secret in this world, and one of the Piper family's secrets is a heartbreaking lesbian love story that is, in some ways, the emotional lynchpin of the novel. To be more descriptive would give away some major spoilers. Suffice it to say I fell in love with this love story between two passionate, unapologetic women, and despite the relative brevity of pages devoted to it, MacDonald structures the novel in such a way that its presence echoes throughout the story.

All of her characters are deeply human and sympathetic, but some of them are also terrible people who do terrible things. While I think the book is best read unspoiled (it's book that's very much about its secrets) there is one triggery, potentially problematic event in the novel that I'd like to give readers the option of being warned for.

I'm placing a spoiler bar behind the cut, so it's safe to click through:Collapse )


Psst... LJ...

I am cheating on you with tumblr. And I ain't even sorry.

Community Rec

sharp_teeth, "A Multifandom Horror Comment Meme for Writers and Artists."

Prompting is open for the next five days or so. Right now the fandom breakdown is running about fifty-fifty Supernatural/every other fandom, but there's still lots of staggeringly brilliant prompts in a lot of different fandoms. I'm sorely tempted by one Black Swan prompt in particular, but I won't say anything because nothing jinxes me like actually saying I'm going to write something.

Mar. 28th, 2011

Ugh. I sometimes wonder why I never started writing before last year and then I get into a funky shame spiral of overplanning and overreaching and overrediting like the one I'm in now and then I remember.

My natural impulse to edit is about forty pounds heavier than my impulse to write, and when they go head to head, editing tends to beat every fluffy, innocent impulse to write into submission until it's curled up quivering in a corner rocking and crying.

I've got this ficcish thing I'm doing, long, for me, at 10,000 words, and I'm so fucking close to being done, but it's like I've just collapsed short of the finish line, and now I've got to pick myself up and brush myself off and keep going when all I really want is to lie here on the asphalt.


On the other hand, there's this woman, so you know, natural inclination to shut up and edit, you're all right by me.


Doctor... who?

I've started watching Doctor Who because all my knitting buddies watch it while knitting, and I like to run with the pack.

So far, I like it. More than I expected to.

I am weirdly allergic to sci-fi. The cold and metallic and militaristic aesthetics always, always puts me off, no matter how good the stories or characters are. I think Doctor Who is easier for me to stomach because there's sort of this shabby, cheery quaintness to it aesthetically, even when it's pulling out the usual sci-fi stuff, and there's very little of anything resembling the weapon or tech porn that usually infests sci-fi? Plus, you know, they still dip back into the Masterpiece Theatre costume dramas from time to time and that's a nice tonic for me.

I didn't really expect much from the Ninth Doctor because it's hard not to notice fandom is ALL ABOUT TEN, but I quite like him. I like Rose. I like the plucky one-shot ordinary human characters who don't know what's going on but try their best and aren't ridiculed (at least by the show) for being muggles. I like that most of them are women. Non-stereotypical women who have jobs and usually don't fit conventional beauty standards.

I'm trying really hard not to think too hard about the mechanics of time travel and changing the future in this universe, or the fact that, by my reckoning, Rose and Nine have blundered in and gotten people killed (people who probably wouldn't have died if the Tardis had never shown up) in like three episodes and I'm only on episode eleven? NO. WILL NOT BECOME INVESTED IN THE MORAL IMPLICATIONS OF THE HEROES' ACTIONS. THAT WAY LIES MADNESS.